I am not a Guru or the Infinitely Wise One

I mentioned to my friend Michelle that I was going to diarise my lump adventure on the web. Ideally, I would like to be at the end of the adventure and writing backwards about how I healed my cancer or how I survived cancer. There is a certain amount of risk involved in writing as it’s happening, with no guarantee of the outcome. She asked how ‘honest’ I was going to make it. “I’ll tell it as it is, and explore whatever comes up.” Obviously I will need to bring personal and emotional issues out and not all of it will paint me in the best light. My fears, insecurities and short-comings will reveal themselves. No one said it but the undertone was ‘what happens if you die?’ Well, then I will write about that as well. Warts and all!

It’s also been pointed out to me that this might be a bad idea as I am known as the Reinventing Myself Healing Meditation/Book/CD/Website author. Won’t this discredit your work or your credibility? I have been asked.

If people believe that I will never be sick or that I won’t or can’t die then that is their perception. Doctors, nurses, healers of all kinds can and do have health issues. Jesus died, the Pope died, Mother Teresa died. Gurus, sages, shamans, medicine men and spiritual leaders have all experienced health problems and death. The most intelligent and influential people have made mistakes, failed at certain things and on occasion probably acted in stupid or ignorant ways. A bad idea is not a failure - it is just an experience. Disease is not a weakness - it is just an experience. A broken heart does not come from being unlovable - it is just an experience. Success or adversity can only be measured by having the experience.

A successful life is one in which two steps forward are taken and one step back is accepted. Failure or defeat is for people who do not move forward at all. I do not believe that any human being has lived an entire life by racing only forward. I, you and everyone else are here to have the human adventure. Only a fool would believe that I have not cried, fallen or bled. I have never, ever hinted that I am the master of life. I am not a Guru or the Infinitely Wise One. I can not place my hands on your head and release your demons nor can I command you to leave a coma and walk away. I am very, very human. I write from the heart. I try to keep it honest, simple and personal. I believe I know how to design, create and maintain a joyful life.

I know of many things which work for me and I have uncovered many things which do not work for me. I want to share that with you. But, do understand that my life is an ongoing work and new experiences will continue to show up. This new turn is a blank canvass right now, but I am willing to add the brushstrokes in a public arena and hope that along the way, I might make it easier for others. If something does not work then I will tell you and if it does work well then you are free to explore it for yourself.

I do know a lot of stuff. Much of what I know I have read or researched or heard along the way. I don’t write about these things. I accept that a lot of what I learn is probably right, but I can’t say for sure that I know it is all true. So, I only write about what works for me. I write only about what I have personally experienced or observed. I don’t say this is guaranteed to be right for you. I simply offer my experience and believe that if it resonates with someone then that person is free to apply it to their experience.

I can’t write about healing if I have never had anything to heal. The healing meditations won’t instantly cure cancer or heart disease or any other disease. What they will do is allow the listener to access subconscious beliefs and issues which may be the root emotional cause of a disease. They will also change the energy flow of the body and release stresses which impede healing. It’s not magic or technique or medicine which heals the body- it is the immune system which heals the body. The meditations encourage the immune system to function at peak performance. I will be sharing some of my meditation experiences through out this journey as much of my insight comes from my daily meditations. (Or see http://www.reinventingmyself.com/cds.html)

Last year I had an operation on my knee. I was told I would need crutches for a few weeks. I used them for a few days. The surgeon, physiotherapists and nurses couldn’t believe the wound healed so quickly. The registrar at the hospital said she had never seen anything like it. The physio’ couldn’t believe that I had full range of movement within six weeks and the Rheumatologist accused me of hypnotizing myself into not having pain as he insisted it was impossible.

Someone said “Yeah, but if your visualization techniques are so good then why did you even need an operation?” Good point, but I ‘Dunno’.

If you think that you are an optimist does that mean you will never experience pessimism? If you are an extravert will you never feel shy? If you are successful will you never fail?

Okay, I am now on record as stating that I do not know everything about everything. I am not always deliriously happy nor am I the most beautiful and desirable woman in the land. I am not wealthy and I am not the best of anything in particular that I can think of. So, now I will return to my original intention and share with you a new experience that I am having and explore with you this journey.

This and everything else that I have put together is about what works well for me and it is an invitation to you to use my experiences if you feel they might serve your purposes. But please do not make me or anyone else your truth. Take what you want and leave the rest.